Wow I just posted yesterday about the high hopes of going home. Well….false alarm! I said I wasn’t getting my hopes up but….I LIED! Found out this morning that my platelet count is even lower than last time; to the point it is concerning; concerning enough to not go home. Initial reaction was that of total disappointment and bubble busting! Still not sure if it was the realization of not going home to my house and fur babies, the fear of being knocked completely out during delivery, or the fact that I already knew what was meant to be would be and not trusting my own beliefs.
Luckily my sister was here with Ben. Talking to her and that adorable little “hoot owl” kept my mind off things for most of the day. After they left and I had time for it to sink in I called/text the team. Off course they were all positive and reassuring that this all part of “the plan” and to stay strong. What made me smile the most was a simple text from my little bro that said: no worries. In the words of the Lion King; Hakuna Matata!
Monitoring tonight was also interesting to me. For the first 15-20 min of it I was having contractions every 3-5 min. I couldn’t help but laugh! It just made me think they were in there saying “Platelets is all you got momma? Well look what WE can do!” So young and already little pranksters like their daddy! J J Maybe I’m reading too much into it but it was enough to remind me why I’m here. Even if we aren’t going home this weekend today is one day closer than yesterday! Hakuna Matata!
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